Value of Friendship

I value friendship more than anything else in the world. I work hard to be a good friend, but I sometimes find myself not very well liked no matter what I do. I have gone through so many friends growing up. I was the nice person, never said no, and I found myself always going out of my way to help other people, while other people would watch me go through hard times on my own. I had support, my family, but there are times when having friends by your side gives you the feeling that people care about you. And I know I have gone from a happy blog to a not so happy, but like I say, life has it's ups and downs, and I just watched an episode o "Drop Dead Diva" and in the show, Jane, this girl who has gone through a lot, finds herself as the best man to her ex-lovers wedding. How hard is that? It's because she goes out of her way to help people, and in the end, nobody seems to notice how hard she has worked. I know that people took advantage of me as a kid growing up. My parents taught me to be a certain way. They showed my sisters and I the meaning of family, and that less is more, and that if you give without complaining, you will be rewarded ten times what you expect. It is true, God is always watching our backs, and has never failed us.

So as I thought about this blog, it made me realize that the people I put my all for, do not consider me a real friend, otherwise we would hang out, eat out, and do what real friends do. Respect each other but not talk bad about each other. I know now who my real friends are, and am still going through a bit of that phase. I know a lot of people, and find my self somehow still towards the back in the "not so popular" corner, but I know that the person that I am does not need a thousand friends, just five close girls, and I do have my close circle. but sometimes it would be nice if people did not treat me more like a person and made me feel a bit better about my self. I know my personality can be a bit tough and aggressive, but did it ever occur to you that it might be a front because of my own insecurities?

We grow at different paces, but if there is one thing I know, it is that I am an amazing person and hard worker. Regardless how tough I might act, how loud I might be, I get stuff done, and when I struggle, watching me fall should not entertain you, but you should want to help me get back up, because that is what real friends do. They support each other, they grow together, and do not think they are better than one another.

I ask you to remember that you are not better than me, nor am I you, but to treat me the way you would want to be treated. Lile a human being, with respect, and if you have a problem with the way I do things, be the bigger person and just talk to me to my face. I can handle what you say. We all need a little love, so I am hoping the next time I run into an old friend that they won't be fake towards me. I know who I am. I do not hesitate to share how I feel hence this blog. I am not letting my personality be the reason why I cannot find love, happiness, and comfort where I am.

Signed:
GyftedArtyst