Updates: Commandment #5

I have decided to the the commandments in a different way, not ignoring the others, just a process Id like to try, and will see what happens in about ten weeks. Yeah, there are ten rules, five God rules, and five earthly rules!

 #1 Honor Thy Mother & Thy Father

Soooo It's day one of my promise of keeping one of the commandments. Let's just say I def need to improve on a lot. It is not easy, I do respect my parents, however I am dealing with a lot of personal issues that hold me back a lot. But today, I will do better, day is not over, and I have time...I am human, and it is a step by step process. Can't rush everything. I thought to myself today about how I felt after one of my tasks, and I said to myself, "Do not be a contradiction or a hypocrite" God is neither of those. He is a humble Man that loved all and sacrificed his life for all, so I should not act like I will be left out in the cold. I believe God will see me through it all. No Turning Back, as  Damita Haddon sings. Love her song, one of my personal favorites.
I love the fact that my sister keeps me in check, I as born backwards, but still, am loved by those that matter.

More updates later!

Signed:
GyftedArtyst

Contradiction

Contradiction: A statement or proposition that contradicts  or denies another or itself and is logically incongruous.

 

 

 

So I def contradicted my self in a previous blog. If I trust in God, than I should not fear the amount school may cost, I shouldn't fear how long it will take to graduate, or how long it will take to get a job, or when I find love, if I know God will see me through, than nothing is impossible for him. Thanks to a great friend for pointing that out! I CAN do all things through Christ! Faith, NOT fear!

 

Signed:

GyftedArtyst 

Say A Little Prayer

Okay, so this job hunt is really hard. I am a pretty strong person. When I put my mind to something I can get it done, but of course this past year I have been distracted. The devil wants me unhappy and miserable and to just cry and give up, but I am not doing either. I haven't cried yet, given up, but yes there are days I have been really unhappy. It's a really hard road to go through but I am not going through it alone. I have lot of support, the only issue is making sure the support knows this is what I want. In life, we are individuals and I am trying to figure out who I am.

So this job hunt thing, such a mess, and I'm literally on the verge of saying, "fine, I'll stay jobless" But I can't. I'm half way through the year, and if school does not work out, I need a full time job. PERIOD!

As DMX sings, "Lord Give Me A Sign" Lord, I'm asking for you to help me out a little bit....I know I haven't been very nice to people or spoken to my family in such nice terms, but God, I'm getting past frustrated and need you to throw more strength and courage my way. It's hard, and all my strength is going into this job hunt by the time I get a job I'll feel too tired to even go to it. I'm a very dedicated person and a hard worker, when I commit to something I stick to it, and I don't stop unless my tasks are finished. But I'm losing my mind because I haven't been able to focus. It hurts, I'm sad more days, and I find my self losing my patience on others than I am grabbing my bible and claiming I can do all things through Christ! I know anything is possible if I have you, however, I need some help here...Please, just a bit of help....I don't know how to beg or plead God, I really don't, but I know deep down that you know I want a job, you know that I want to be successful, the reality is that I'm terrified of going back to school, terrified of going back to work, I'm a strong person, but you know how hard it is for me to fit in God, you know my struggles, I just ask that you continue to stand by me in good and in bad. This is a public prayer, never done it before.

I know my job miracle will happen soon, I haven't given up just yet, God, please, help me keep going.

Signed;
GyftedArtyst