Small Victories Do Count

I know how hard it is to find a job because I have been jobless since February of this past year. But over time, as you look for a job, your attitude changes, your perception changes, you change as a person, and you go from thinking good about things, to having a bad attitude and wondering why God has forgotten about you. Some days it feels like you are being ignored, stepped on, under estimated, and treated like you do not matter. Think about all the good you have done, even if it happened years ago, you have come far. I am still job hunting, applying, and hearing nothing back, so I keep going. Found more jobs, and say to my self, I qualify for this job, because this is my passion, or I love to do this, so I will work hard to make the job happen for me. Dwelling on the pain only makes it harder to keep moving forward. I have been standing beside my best friend for almost six years, and there are some days when I just want to yell at her, but I do not because I know that she needs me, but there are times when I need her, but she makes the friendship seem more about her than us. I have tried to tell her, but she is so wrapped up in her own world sometimes she forgets that she is not on her own. I know she has gone through a lot, but she also has to grow up at some point and get over her past. I told her, but I am not sure if she will speak to me again. I know her, and we might not speak for a few weeks or a few days or five months, but I do know that I love her with my heart, and am only trying to help her. I hope one day she can see that.

Signed:
GyftedArtyst

Dealing With Grief

We all deal with grief in different ways. A few days ago, I recently learned of the passing of one of my youth that was in my youth group years ago when I was a leader. His death came as a shock, however, I was unable to cry, or show any signs of sadness. I know it's a sad time, but it just does not seem like it happened at all. I did not know the kid at all, but years ago, he was such a happy smiley kid who just wanted to be a part of everything.  Everyone loved him, and we are all mourning him. Life is so precious, that the thought of anything happening to my younger cousins make me wish I was involved in their life more. And that is what I will do. It my job to be a part of my family's life and to show them that I love them and care for them even when they are not in the mood. My family has shown some of the strongest values and morals I know that to think anything less would be insane. Im beyond grateful, I am speechless at the impression, the imprint that my family has one a lot of people. I love them with everything in me, and I hope that they know that. Through thick and thin, family is always there, treasure life, value and remember each moment, because one day that moment will be the only memory. Even when family makes you sad, or want to yell and scream, they will be there for you no matter what.

Signed:
GyftedArtyst