We all do it. Well, for those that have admitted it, we have faked it to make it. Nobody wants to be left alone, nobody likes going places on their own, okay, some people might, but have you ever really asked a person if they were really happy being on their own?
Not having a partner, or friend or a lover by their side? Some people never get married they just date because they don't want commitment, but they don't want to be alone. So they do the whole friends with benefits package. That's not my style. I believe in commitment because I have watched a lot of relationships, and marriages succeed.
There are days I don't like being alone, and days when I prefer being alone. The days I don't like being alone are when people move away to start over, or people go on a trip and are gone for a month or so. I say this because for the first time in a long time my sister took her first trip on her own. She's gone for a month. I've traveled lots of times before and am used to traveling, but I now know what it feels like to come home to an empty house, or an empty room. Yes, sob sob, I am dealing with it. Of course I miss my sister, but I don't want to depend on her to be happy. Which is why I do encourage people to be okay being on their own before settling down because once you make that choice, you can't turn back.
Now, when people ask me if I miss someone, there are times when I try to 'pretend' because I don't want to show signs of being weak. But it's not about being weak, it's about being honest. Yes I miss the person I spend hours talking to at night, or yes I miss the person I shop with sometimes, or eat out with sometimes. But should I fake it so people don't think I will fall apart? No, I keep going. When I was in England for three months, my sister had to learn a lot on her own. Like braiding her hair. I wasn't there so she had to get it done. She survived me not being there, but it was hard for her, just like it's hard for me, but God sees us through it all. That's one thing I know is true. Faking is lying. It isn't right, but everyone has their own reasons because in this world, we still get judged for the choices we make, places we go, who we hang out with, etc. Though the only person that can judge is God, we have to remember that he knows that we are faking it. He knew I missed my sister even though I tried to play it cool and tough. We all do it so survive, but is it worth it?
Being real is better than being fake and I know that acting differently in order to "fit in" makes things worse. Do what you love, we owe nothing to each other, just live your life.
Signed:
GyftedArtyst
