Some days I am happy, some days I am sad, some days I question where I am going, and other days the lighbulb goes on and I hae figured out my next step! God works in mysterious ways but he never let's me down! I'm going to get personal...this won't be the first and only blog though there will be more!
So I have never been in a relationship. Those that know me, and I mean like really know me know I don't date just anyone. I have very little experience in that section. I was born in Zambia, raised in Canada, so my ways of things are different. I date for marriage. However, times have changed. I went from wanting to date when I was younger (JR & HS), like all my other friends, to having no problem with waiting(till you grow up a bit more), to thinking after some university experience "What is wrong with me?" (Why can't I find a man) But than I learned that having standards when it comes to relationships is a good thing. Respect is the one thing guy's want, and if you don't have for yourself, yeah, good luck! If there is one thing I have learned about guys it's from my sisters. Very valuable advice, the question is do I have the confidence and patience to make the advice work? I do because of God!
I am not the type of girl that chases guys, guys are supposed to come to my door, but often times the door, ahem, my door is not always open which prevents the opportunity. I believe that knowledge is power and that woman have a lot of power. Which means if there is something that I want, I just need to put a "lil umph in it". And it's true. But, it does not always work in my favor, which makes it often hard to "get the guy". I am a shy person but with the right person, right place, right timing, etc, I come out of my shell. But as usual there are some things about me that would cause a guy to question things and I just want to say that I am different than most girls, but I am also one of a kind. I am the type of girl you take home to your parents, yes I am, and I am proud my parents brought me up like that.
A while ago my older sister put together a surprise party for her husband, and it went great. Afterwards a friend drove us home and I made a reflection about how I would defend anyone but when it comes to me, I feel like I have too much to prove. I know it's not the most positive thing to put on a blog but it shows we all have our flaws and stuff to work on, don't hold it against me for being real and raw with ya'll. Thats how I do it!
This is me saying, you have a chance to get to know me. So please don't be shy
(Please let me know if this made sense because I do proofread my work) :)
Signed:
GyftedArtyst
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
Oh What A Night!!!!!!
....
For a writer I often find myself with no words to explain how I feel.
But its been two days and I don't want to forget what happened so here goes:
So a few weeks back Zamnova, A Zambian group that formed years ago decided we would finally form an executive to plan events for Zambians in the Diaspora, and also we have the first Zambian conference happening in Vancouver British Columbia this Sept so we needed to start quickly and form a team to plan events, raise funds, etc.
So I was nominated and won the spot for Secretary. I am response for taking minutes at every meeting and ensuring that everyone is up to date with events, concerns, issues, and suggestions made to keep the team strong.
I am excited for what is to come, and cannot wait to get started.
We had a great turnout, a bunch of people showed up, of course it was Zambian's only, a few were not able to be there, however, it went on. Food was great, fellowship, not sure how many pictures were taken but I might be in one or two. I took a ton of my self on my phone, lol, I like taking pictures of myself. Not being arrogant, I just know I am beautiful.
I am still on the job hunt, am applying everywhere I know, everywhere I go, but everyone wants the same spot so its hard to get a job that fifteen other people do not want. But I will keep going.
Okay, I did not know I was this tired, will blog again later when I have taken my Vitamin D. I take my vitamine as often as I can and they make a difference.
Okay, that's it for now!
Signed:
GyftedArtyst
For a writer I often find myself with no words to explain how I feel.
But its been two days and I don't want to forget what happened so here goes:
So a few weeks back Zamnova, A Zambian group that formed years ago decided we would finally form an executive to plan events for Zambians in the Diaspora, and also we have the first Zambian conference happening in Vancouver British Columbia this Sept so we needed to start quickly and form a team to plan events, raise funds, etc.
So I was nominated and won the spot for Secretary. I am response for taking minutes at every meeting and ensuring that everyone is up to date with events, concerns, issues, and suggestions made to keep the team strong.
I am excited for what is to come, and cannot wait to get started.
We had a great turnout, a bunch of people showed up, of course it was Zambian's only, a few were not able to be there, however, it went on. Food was great, fellowship, not sure how many pictures were taken but I might be in one or two. I took a ton of my self on my phone, lol, I like taking pictures of myself. Not being arrogant, I just know I am beautiful.
I am still on the job hunt, am applying everywhere I know, everywhere I go, but everyone wants the same spot so its hard to get a job that fifteen other people do not want. But I will keep going.
Okay, I did not know I was this tired, will blog again later when I have taken my Vitamin D. I take my vitamine as often as I can and they make a difference.
Okay, that's it for now!
Signed:
GyftedArtyst
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Fear Not Faith
Firstly, Happy Father's Day to my amazing and awesome father, I love you and wish you a blessed day! As well as Happy Father's Day to all fathers and father figures!
I am listening to Kirk Franklin new album called "Hello Fear". I have always admired Kirk Franklin because of his genius ways of bringing everyone to Christ, and also not being afraid to share his testimony. I find sometimes Christians keep so much inside because the church is still critical towards the choices some make. **GO KIRK :)**
I grew up in church, I believe in God, I know God is a miracle worker, and I have never stopped loving or learning about him. Two years ago in England while looking after my grandmother, I used to watch the news to keep up to date as much as I could. One day there was a massive plain crash and 300 people died. The youngest I believe had been 2 or 3 years old. I could barely keep it together, and was terrified, and started having anxiety attacks, breakdowns, and felt like I had lost complete control of everything including how to process, and how to move. Yes, I was in my early twenties when I discovered that death is real. The hardest part about my trip was that I was supposed to be looking after my grandmother, but she, as always the strong woman in our family ended up looking after me. I wasn't working, and lived off of her. Got grocery's when we needed food, picked up odds and ends, would go to the market with her, the hospital, went into the city once with her, she was amazing, and we became best friends. Sadly, since than we hardly speak, but I plan to change that.
Anyway,
I have always lived in fear. Fear of being in love and being hurt, fear of not being the person that I want to be, fear of never figuring out what it is I want to do with my life, and fear I would be rejected because I am different. Not everyone is meant for school but I plan to finish, timing has just never been on my side. But now I do know that God is on my side and will never leave me. I am still a God-fearing woman, I love him for all he has done. When times get tough I know I can call on him, and of course even in good times I praise him in advance no matter what happens.
But I often feel as if I am not "Godly" enough because of how I have chosen to handle things. I do not get "in the spirit" like some friends do, and I have nothing against it. I am just not there yet, I do try, but everything takes time. I decided long ago to not let anything deter me. So instead of me being afraid, I decided to have faith, no more fear. Fear is an excuse to be lazy and I know for a fact I am not lazy. I am told by people how great and awesome I am and to hear people talk like that, makes me feel awesome and puts me on cloud 9. No arrogance at all, but compliments are important.
God is still walking with me and watching over me, he knows who I am, and will never leave. I encourage all to keep loving and learning more about God and to not give up on yourself.
Some of my favorite verses:
Eccl: 3:1 There is a time for everything.
What an great way to explain things.
Oldie but goodie: John 3:16: How can we forget????????
Philippians: 4:13 It is true that we can do all things through Christ
I have more but those are some personal favorites. Encourage other's to live in faith and not fear, but remember to not judge because we all have our own paths that we are taking. Let's love each other as God would love us
God Bless and we will chat later
Signed:
GyftedArtyst
I am listening to Kirk Franklin new album called "Hello Fear". I have always admired Kirk Franklin because of his genius ways of bringing everyone to Christ, and also not being afraid to share his testimony. I find sometimes Christians keep so much inside because the church is still critical towards the choices some make. **GO KIRK :)**
I grew up in church, I believe in God, I know God is a miracle worker, and I have never stopped loving or learning about him. Two years ago in England while looking after my grandmother, I used to watch the news to keep up to date as much as I could. One day there was a massive plain crash and 300 people died. The youngest I believe had been 2 or 3 years old. I could barely keep it together, and was terrified, and started having anxiety attacks, breakdowns, and felt like I had lost complete control of everything including how to process, and how to move. Yes, I was in my early twenties when I discovered that death is real. The hardest part about my trip was that I was supposed to be looking after my grandmother, but she, as always the strong woman in our family ended up looking after me. I wasn't working, and lived off of her. Got grocery's when we needed food, picked up odds and ends, would go to the market with her, the hospital, went into the city once with her, she was amazing, and we became best friends. Sadly, since than we hardly speak, but I plan to change that.
Anyway,
I have always lived in fear. Fear of being in love and being hurt, fear of not being the person that I want to be, fear of never figuring out what it is I want to do with my life, and fear I would be rejected because I am different. Not everyone is meant for school but I plan to finish, timing has just never been on my side. But now I do know that God is on my side and will never leave me. I am still a God-fearing woman, I love him for all he has done. When times get tough I know I can call on him, and of course even in good times I praise him in advance no matter what happens.
But I often feel as if I am not "Godly" enough because of how I have chosen to handle things. I do not get "in the spirit" like some friends do, and I have nothing against it. I am just not there yet, I do try, but everything takes time. I decided long ago to not let anything deter me. So instead of me being afraid, I decided to have faith, no more fear. Fear is an excuse to be lazy and I know for a fact I am not lazy. I am told by people how great and awesome I am and to hear people talk like that, makes me feel awesome and puts me on cloud 9. No arrogance at all, but compliments are important.
God is still walking with me and watching over me, he knows who I am, and will never leave. I encourage all to keep loving and learning more about God and to not give up on yourself.
Some of my favorite verses:
Eccl: 3:1 There is a time for everything.
What an great way to explain things.
Oldie but goodie: John 3:16: How can we forget????????
Philippians: 4:13 It is true that we can do all things through Christ
I have more but those are some personal favorites. Encourage other's to live in faith and not fear, but remember to not judge because we all have our own paths that we are taking. Let's love each other as God would love us
God Bless and we will chat later
Signed:
GyftedArtyst
Are You An Honest Actor?
So...
I just finished watched Just Wright with one of my fav poets and musical artists Common, and Queen Latifah whom I respect as an artist...BUT...The acting was not very well done and the fact that the Queen has not openly admitted to being a Lesbian, which we know she is...She played the love interest to Common, but I was unable to enjoy the movie because of what she is now. The movie is old, but some movies are not always findable on the internet and I just got Netflix so I can watch anything I want. I am a lover not a hater...But it really had me wondering how a lesbian can play a man's love interest...
Back to the blog...
I know acting is acting, but you have to convince the audience you can act. If you are not the best actor, you have just wasted millions making a movie. Why? I am not sure, it may have done well because of who was in it, but sometimes the person's name is not enough. I have seen the Queen in a lot of movies, and Common very few, but I know he is an incredible musical artist, as well as poet. But being an actor is an art just like writing, painting, or even dressing someone up because it takes time to really understand the craft, and the history, and etc. NOT everyone OR anyone can do it. You must train yourself, be coached, talk to people, and get feedback on how you are doing, but make sure to ask people that won't be biased, truth hurts but we need it to excel.
I feel as an artyst (I spell it with a y) still in the making, that I am not as far as I want to be, but I am putting my self out there. I am getting word out, I talk to people, I ask for feedback but positive or at least constructive so that if I need to improve, I know what to work on. I do not like it when people lie and say I was good, but that is also a confidence issue. I know I am great now, but it takes times (lol)
Soo...I am confused.
Can anyone just be an actor? Denzel Washington, and Julia Roberts, they both went to school to learn about acting and how to perfect the craft while some people just auditioned for roles they weren't sure they would get, and also needed bills to be paid. So they should get the role and suddenly go from making below min wage to being the star of a major motion picture? I mean, yeah luck is luck, but if you cannot sell a movie to me, more like a preview, chances are I will not go see the movie. I saw Common and Queen Latifah and thought it would be a great movie, but it took a while to see so after what you hear, and learn about people, things change. Maybe I am a harsh critic, but I do my best to be honest. After all why should we lie to one another? Who benefits from it?
Can you be an honest actor? Are you worth my money?
Signed:
GyftedArtyst
I just finished watched Just Wright with one of my fav poets and musical artists Common, and Queen Latifah whom I respect as an artist...BUT...The acting was not very well done and the fact that the Queen has not openly admitted to being a Lesbian, which we know she is...She played the love interest to Common, but I was unable to enjoy the movie because of what she is now. The movie is old, but some movies are not always findable on the internet and I just got Netflix so I can watch anything I want. I am a lover not a hater...But it really had me wondering how a lesbian can play a man's love interest...
Back to the blog...
I know acting is acting, but you have to convince the audience you can act. If you are not the best actor, you have just wasted millions making a movie. Why? I am not sure, it may have done well because of who was in it, but sometimes the person's name is not enough. I have seen the Queen in a lot of movies, and Common very few, but I know he is an incredible musical artist, as well as poet. But being an actor is an art just like writing, painting, or even dressing someone up because it takes time to really understand the craft, and the history, and etc. NOT everyone OR anyone can do it. You must train yourself, be coached, talk to people, and get feedback on how you are doing, but make sure to ask people that won't be biased, truth hurts but we need it to excel.
I feel as an artyst (I spell it with a y) still in the making, that I am not as far as I want to be, but I am putting my self out there. I am getting word out, I talk to people, I ask for feedback but positive or at least constructive so that if I need to improve, I know what to work on. I do not like it when people lie and say I was good, but that is also a confidence issue. I know I am great now, but it takes times (lol)
Soo...I am confused.
Can anyone just be an actor? Denzel Washington, and Julia Roberts, they both went to school to learn about acting and how to perfect the craft while some people just auditioned for roles they weren't sure they would get, and also needed bills to be paid. So they should get the role and suddenly go from making below min wage to being the star of a major motion picture? I mean, yeah luck is luck, but if you cannot sell a movie to me, more like a preview, chances are I will not go see the movie. I saw Common and Queen Latifah and thought it would be a great movie, but it took a while to see so after what you hear, and learn about people, things change. Maybe I am a harsh critic, but I do my best to be honest. After all why should we lie to one another? Who benefits from it?
Can you be an honest actor? Are you worth my money?
Signed:
GyftedArtyst
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